i awoke this morning feeling exhausted and a bit sickly, but that is often the case when you have a busy weekend. however, as i got in the shower, things changed. i started getting incredibly dizzy and disoriented. i forgot where i was, what i was doing, and what i was taking a shower for. i felt incapable of doing much of anything because of my confusion, so i somewhat collapsed on the shower floor. now however humorous a mental image that creates for you, it was really not a great feeling this morning. it was one of the most strange things that has ever happened to me. all the while, random words were streaming through my head. they made sense, but they were popping into my head without any sort of cue. it was all spontaneous. i guess i passed out on the floor of the shower for a short time, because i awoke being again disoriented, but i was able to stand up. as i was preparing to turn the water off in the shower, i realized that i didn't know how. i had forgotten how to turn the water off... i was like there wasn't a knob there to control the water - or at least i wasn't seeing it. so i got a little bit panicky, because i knew it really wasn't normal. i didn't know what to do at all. finally, by some miracle, the knob "appeared", although incredibly blurry. i dizzily made my way to it, and fumbled to turn it off. i was really skeptical as to if i would be able to drive to church, much less play drums when i got there. but my condition wore off, and left me with a headache. but i'd rather have a headache than be in the stupor that i was in earlier.
i asked my dad about it when i got home, and he told me that i was probably "orthostatic", which combines two things - being dehydrated, and being heated up rapidly. after quickly getting in the shower after waking up (and not having much fluids lately), all of the blood rushed out of my brain, causing me to experience the things that i did. it wasn't pleasant, but now i know to be much more careful in the future....
the end.
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
brace yourselves
i now look at myself in the mirror and wince at what i see. i look like a pirahna, and i feel that i may injure someone by smiling. and it's awful feeling something constanly "on" your teeth. i just want to rip them off. i'm also scared that a bracket will pop and cause me some sort of awful injury.
it's safe for all of you to assume now, without me having said it, that i have gotten braces. i can't say that i like it, but i do hope that this discomfort will be worth it in the end. for the time being, i am confined to eating soft foods like yogurt, applesauce, and other materials soothing to braced-mouths like mine. my next goal is to convince kids at school not to call me "dinosaur-face"... because i really do look like something out of the jurassic era.
i didn't do so well on my anatomy test today. and i studied my brains out.
my mouth is uncomfortable. i will now go play guitar.
it's safe for all of you to assume now, without me having said it, that i have gotten braces. i can't say that i like it, but i do hope that this discomfort will be worth it in the end. for the time being, i am confined to eating soft foods like yogurt, applesauce, and other materials soothing to braced-mouths like mine. my next goal is to convince kids at school not to call me "dinosaur-face"... because i really do look like something out of the jurassic era.
i didn't do so well on my anatomy test today. and i studied my brains out.
my mouth is uncomfortable. i will now go play guitar.
Sunday, February 20, 2005
of montreal
so, tomorrow i'm going to Atlanta with my mom and brothers to pick up my sister, Leah, who is flying in from Norway. i am super excited about her coming back - especially since she'll be here for at least a year. Kristian, my brother-in-law, is flying in sometime early March... I'm not sure of the exact date. But I'm really happy that they are coming back. I can't wait.
I have an anatomy quiz tuesday. Then a test wednesday. This week is going to be an academic nightmare.
i really hate music-writing blocks. even moreso since I'm stuck in one as we speak. I have numerous song ideas and melodies, but I'm never clever enough to write suitable music or lyrics to weld them into complete songs. i do hope that this is a phase, and that i am not going to be uncapable of writing a full song for the rest of my life. i don't know if i could live with that.
lately, i have been into alot of different music than what i usually tend to listen to... not that i don't like them. it's just that i normally listen to... different things. lately, my playlist has looked something like this..
1. the strokes
2. franz ferdinand
3. the killers
4. the stills
5. muse
6. lovedrug
7. keane
8. the white stripes
9. and the like
why such a sudden change in taste? it's not so much a change in taste as it is a need for change. for the last few months, i've been listening to bands such as copeland, mae, the format, the rocket summer, etc etc etc. i still thoroughly enjoy each and every one of those - and would definitely consider them some of my favorite bands. but i feared that i would grow tired of listening to them. which would be an awful thing. so i just made a change.
i'm done with writing for now.
I have an anatomy quiz tuesday. Then a test wednesday. This week is going to be an academic nightmare.
i really hate music-writing blocks. even moreso since I'm stuck in one as we speak. I have numerous song ideas and melodies, but I'm never clever enough to write suitable music or lyrics to weld them into complete songs. i do hope that this is a phase, and that i am not going to be uncapable of writing a full song for the rest of my life. i don't know if i could live with that.
lately, i have been into alot of different music than what i usually tend to listen to... not that i don't like them. it's just that i normally listen to... different things. lately, my playlist has looked something like this..
1. the strokes
2. franz ferdinand
3. the killers
4. the stills
5. muse
6. lovedrug
7. keane
8. the white stripes
9. and the like
why such a sudden change in taste? it's not so much a change in taste as it is a need for change. for the last few months, i've been listening to bands such as copeland, mae, the format, the rocket summer, etc etc etc. i still thoroughly enjoy each and every one of those - and would definitely consider them some of my favorite bands. but i feared that i would grow tired of listening to them. which would be an awful thing. so i just made a change.
i'm done with writing for now.
Saturday, February 19, 2005
no strength left
i've had a pretty active day. sort of.
last night, jonathan spent the night. we went to the girls game at GCS, where they beat Richard Winn, taking them to state. it was a great game. after that, we went to Lander to watch the boys championship game, with King versus Richard Winn. RW won. We ate at McDonalds. After eating there, I decided that I'm going to take a break from fast food for awhile. I haven't eaten there once and felt good afterwards. I am left feeling greasy and in need of a shower. And it upsets my stomach.
Today, Jonathan and I woke up at 12:40, went to play tennis with Ashby and Caleb at 1:50 or so. We played. And I played awful. I can usually play decently against Ashby, but today I made a fool of myself. Enough said.
After that, I played soccer/ran at the Y by myself. and now i'm home. and am completely drained of life. i'm definitely going to chill for the rest of the day.
there's a letter that i've been meaning to write. i just don't know how to write it yet.
last night, jonathan spent the night. we went to the girls game at GCS, where they beat Richard Winn, taking them to state. it was a great game. after that, we went to Lander to watch the boys championship game, with King versus Richard Winn. RW won. We ate at McDonalds. After eating there, I decided that I'm going to take a break from fast food for awhile. I haven't eaten there once and felt good afterwards. I am left feeling greasy and in need of a shower. And it upsets my stomach.
Today, Jonathan and I woke up at 12:40, went to play tennis with Ashby and Caleb at 1:50 or so. We played. And I played awful. I can usually play decently against Ashby, but today I made a fool of myself. Enough said.
After that, I played soccer/ran at the Y by myself. and now i'm home. and am completely drained of life. i'm definitely going to chill for the rest of the day.
there's a letter that i've been meaning to write. i just don't know how to write it yet.
Thursday, February 17, 2005
we all have our days.
when i say "those", i mean me.
[note: if you hate hearing people whine, don't continue. because, contrary to what i usually believe about feeling sorry for myself, this post is filled with self pity. forgive me. i'm feeling under the weather in more ways than two]
i feel lost. there are these endless possibilities, choices, problems, questions, and conflicts that i am faced with. i don't know how to deal with half of them. my moods have been fluctuating nearly as much as the weather has been lately. one day i feel top notch, completely encouraged and full of life. the next day, i'm just confused. not necessarily in a bad mood, or raging at people spontaneously. i just feel tired of life (not living...mind you). i'm sick of high-school conflict. i'm tired of social disorder. maybe i'm not really explaining how i feel very accurately. but i'm sort of beyond a point that i can tell.
i'm exhausted. everytime that i take a break from school, i am going on to partake in some other tiring event. i just need to slow down.
and i feel physically sick, but i am pretty confident that most of it has to do with my lack of sleep.
i'm getting a little bit tired of complaining, so i'll end this. i wouldn't be surprised if i erased this post soon. so anyways. have a good night.
[note: if you hate hearing people whine, don't continue. because, contrary to what i usually believe about feeling sorry for myself, this post is filled with self pity. forgive me. i'm feeling under the weather in more ways than two]
i feel lost. there are these endless possibilities, choices, problems, questions, and conflicts that i am faced with. i don't know how to deal with half of them. my moods have been fluctuating nearly as much as the weather has been lately. one day i feel top notch, completely encouraged and full of life. the next day, i'm just confused. not necessarily in a bad mood, or raging at people spontaneously. i just feel tired of life (not living...mind you). i'm sick of high-school conflict. i'm tired of social disorder. maybe i'm not really explaining how i feel very accurately. but i'm sort of beyond a point that i can tell.
i'm exhausted. everytime that i take a break from school, i am going on to partake in some other tiring event. i just need to slow down.
and i feel physically sick, but i am pretty confident that most of it has to do with my lack of sleep.
i'm getting a little bit tired of complaining, so i'll end this. i wouldn't be surprised if i erased this post soon. so anyways. have a good night.
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
the blunder is back
for all of you who feared indefinite dormancy for the band sunny blunder, you can breathe a sigh of relief. we're back. a brand new site has been designed by our multi-talented drummer Andy, and along with the new site we have a couple of new demos for you to enjoy. you can expect another new one to be added in a matter of weeks, as the final mixing touches are being made. anyhow, we're all quite excited about what is going to happen in the next few months. we have tons of new material that is being polished up, and we're hoping to continue to give you new things to listen, and hopefully be able to play a show in the near future. and remember to keep posting on the message boards!
and as for me [steven], i'm leaving tomorrow for St. Louis, to then be picked up by my friend Craig Hobson and be driven to Greenville College in Illinois, where I'll be spending the weekend, as well as Monday and Tuesday. The two sole purposes for the trip are to see Craig and to scope out the college, as it's a possible place for me to go after graduation. I'm very much looking forward to this trip, and spending time with Craig.
i hope all is well with everyone. Unless I get a chance in Illinois, I probably won't be posting much in between now and next Tuesday.
I leave you with this: Never trust a man with the food, change of clothes, and a drink in his hand.
[compliments of the get up kids]
and as for me [steven], i'm leaving tomorrow for St. Louis, to then be picked up by my friend Craig Hobson and be driven to Greenville College in Illinois, where I'll be spending the weekend, as well as Monday and Tuesday. The two sole purposes for the trip are to see Craig and to scope out the college, as it's a possible place for me to go after graduation. I'm very much looking forward to this trip, and spending time with Craig.
i hope all is well with everyone. Unless I get a chance in Illinois, I probably won't be posting much in between now and next Tuesday.
I leave you with this: Never trust a man with the food, change of clothes, and a drink in his hand.
[compliments of the get up kids]
Saturday, February 05, 2005
metalmouth
i am soon to have guests residing in my mouth. yes, soon there will be metal wires and brackets keeping my teeth company, and hopefully straightening them. i'm a little bit worried though. i don't know why. i mean, i don't THINK people will laugh at me. if they did, then it would be pretty sad. but there is just this feeling of anxiousness inside of me - i'm going to be having the braces for an estimated time of 24 months.
that's 2 years.
i will probably have graduated from high school by the time they are taken off. goody.
i went to a copeland/mae concert a few nights ago. it was everything i could have asked for. i enjoyed it immensely, and was given the privilege to speak with copeland after they played, as well as have a picture taken with the band. fun was had by all.
i think i'll write more later.
that's 2 years.
i will probably have graduated from high school by the time they are taken off. goody.
i went to a copeland/mae concert a few nights ago. it was everything i could have asked for. i enjoyed it immensely, and was given the privilege to speak with copeland after they played, as well as have a picture taken with the band. fun was had by all.
i think i'll write more later.
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