here's the thing...

[taken at new brookland tavern]

i'm not "quitting" my blog, but i'm about to change some things around a bit. when i say "about to", that could mean in the next two days, or the next two weeks.

but i wanted to give everyone a heads up.

by now i thought you would have given up, but i think i like that you haven't

i've been having weird dreams lately. they actually just "started back", because i had them alot more a couple weeks ago, then last night i started having them again. they are undescribable. i've tried explaining it to different people, but i'm never really able to do them justice, because they are vast. and varied. and just awful and confusing.

in a nutshell, it's like i have these dreams that could or could not happen in the future and/or could have maybe happened in the past. then during the day, sometimes they happen. sometimes all of the memories of the dreams flood back into my mind...and it's overwhelming. it's not just events that are in my dream. voices. songs. images. everything. it's completely off-the-wall.

last night, i had several dreams, but the most notable one was one that seemed to be pre-apocalyptic or mid-apocalyptic. there were so many elements of the dream, i couldn't begin to list them. i don't even remember them all myself. but it was part thrilling and part terrifying.

that's it.

if everyone thinks that i have a psychological problem after saying all that, then, so be it. it's just been bothering me alot, and i don't know what's causing it all.


but it destroys my train of thought.


i wrote all of that in a rush, and i'm sort of fearful that any good reputation that i may have had for writing has now been thrown out to the dogs.

everything looks perfect from far away.

i'm having some trouble with life. it's nothing terribly important, yet it has become nearly impossible for me to get past. this another one of those "describing-the-situation-but-not-telling-you-what-it-is" sort of things. i'm sorry to do that so often.

i'm pretty tired. i'm weary from always having so much to do. i have a workload the size of Everest, and the more that i try to climb it, the further i seem to slip behind. my plans for diligently completing 3 classes this summer are slowly but steadily going up in smoke. work is, well, work. i get paid tomorrow, for which i am very glad. but that's not going to change anything. half of it will go into savings, and i really don't know what will become of the rest. i start teaching drum lessons tomorrow. i'm getting paid, but not a ridiculous sum. and then there's the things that i enjoy doing in my spare time: playing music, writing, taking photos, and such. i'm only able to involve myself in those things when i can find a little slot of time in my increasingly busy schedule.

maybe i'm overplaying things. i do that alot.



we should suspend ourselves between the stars.
we'd float above the passing cars.
and watch the sunrise from atop a cloud
and at the end of the day, we'd come back down

when expectations crumble like the berlin wall....

i'll be completely honest. my expectations for last night were pretty high. i won't say that i was overconfident, but i definitely felt like sunny blunder was practiced enough to put on a solid show. due to circumstances beyond and within our control, it didn't turn out to be solid as one might have hoped. but hopefully it wasn't a complete blow out, either.

thanks to all of you who came out! it was great seeing everyone, and i'm pretty sure we had one of the biggest crowds of any band there... which definitely helps sunny blunder's chances of being asked to play there again.

we got alot of positive feedback on our music, and plenty of sympathetic words concerning the death of troy's bass battery (which allowed me and andy to stall for 10 minutes playing the intro of our last song). all in all, however, the night left us with encouragement to seek more shows and the knowledge of how to improve ourselves once we get there.


thanks to all. last night was a fun night. i'll definitely let you know when we have another coming up! and hey - keep checking the site, because it's where plenty more info can be found, and plus, there's a message board. haha.


- steven

between blades of grass

i'm sitting in my backyard at the moment. oh, one of the many the joys of modern technology - wireless internet. i felt like a change. i'm tired of writing posts under the dull monotonous yellow glow of the light in my room. where is the inspiration in that? it's many times more gratifying to sit under the cloudless evening sky, to breathe fresh air, and to recieve inspiration from all sides. the sky, might i add, is the epitome of 'relax' tonight. it is the sort of blue that you wish your eyes could be (that is, if you indeed wanted blue eyes). but anyways, i'm sorry. i'm done ranting about my surroundings.

okay, not quite - the only downside i've noticed so far with posting outdoors is the fact that i'm currently suffering from temporary deafness in both ears due to the locamotive that has just clanked its way by my house, tooting all the while. if there were some better word than 'toot' to describe the sound it makes, i'd use it. but that will have to do. just know that when i say 'toot', it implies a sound that bursts the the strongest of eardrums on a regular basis.

last night my dreams were something to be noted. i dreamt about someone that i haven't talked to in quite sometime. the reason for dreaming of that person is lost on me, but, when i returned home and checked my email, there was a letter from them waiting for me. and since this morning, i've recieved two additional emails from them. i don't really...know. i can't really go into much detail about it, because, well, i just can't. but i wanted to share that oddity with all of you.

i had practice with sunny blunder today. parts of it were encouraging. other parts weren't. i'm mainly discouraged with myself. i either don't have good guitar parts for songs, or my effects don't cooperate, or my fingers don't play the right notes (which, i must say, is the most common scenario). i don't know. maybe sunny blunder deserves a better guitarist - someone who is more creative and solid and together. and i forgot about my keyboard part about 8 times today. i couldn't have felt any more unintelligent.

nonetheless, i'm still quite excited about this coming sunday. i'm not a seasoned performer, and i do get nervous, but i do enjoy performing. it thrills me.

i played tennis today, and enjoyed it immensely.


wow. i'm just looking up into the sky, and all of the blue swallows my vision. it's quite amazing. i only wish that i could venture to some place where there were no lights or trees or buildings to distract my eyes from the magnificent sky. skies are good things to look at. i need to do it much more often.



and i need to post out here more often, too.

another sunny blunder show!

Just thought I'd spread the word on another Sunny Blunder show that is coming up in the next week. We'll be playing a full-band set of 5-6 songs at the New Brookland Tavern in Columbia, South Carolina, on Sunday, June 19. NBT is hosting a "New Music Night", at which Sunny Blunder was invited to play. We'll probably be playing at about 9:00 PM.

Need more information? Talk to me, or visit www.sunnyblunder.com/ or www.newbrooklandtavern.com/

Admission is $3.00. We hope to see everyone out there! Remember, the more of a crowd that we draw to the show, the more chance we have of NBT asking us to play again. Bring your friends, family, and extended family.

the driest desert

if you were to fly an old jet over the vast golden plains of the Sahara desert during the hottest months of summer, then abruptly dump me and my computer out into the sand to fend for ourselves, i'd probably cry. but something else would happen; something much more interesting, probably. you'd be given an accurate image of where i am right now, with my computer in tow, of course - in the otherwise lush land of blogging. i'm in a desert.

translation: i've reached nearly a week (or more) of not posting anything of importance, and somehow, i'm okay with that. i apologize to the few of you who regularly check my page and are left disappointed when you see the same old post remaining and gathering dust.

something fresh is coming. i'm waiting for motivation.

directions to black cow

go here and you will find directions: http://sunnyblunder.com/phpBB/viewtopic.php?p=4700#4700

rescheduled

I'm sorry to throw this on everyone at such short notice, but, the show that was previously planned to be at 8:00 PM tomorrow will actually take place at 9:00 PM or shortly thereafter. This rescheduling is due to another event that is happening at the same venue. Somehow the times got mixed up. Anyways, I hope that this doesn't impair anyones availability to come, and I hope to see you all out there!

[more details are in a previous post]

the sun still shines in the summertime...

be good to me

I've been thinking alot about life lately.

...After reading that, many of you may have already built these expectations being greeted by some great philosophical insight if you continue reading. I'm here to crush those insignificant expectations, only because I have absolutely no ground-breaking insights to present you with - I use violence to compensate for that, thus the crushing of your expectations.

Right, so moving on... I had practice with sunny blunder today. It went well. I'm excited about playing on Friday, but I still have quite alot of work to do with working on parts, etc. I do hope many of you will be able to make it - if not for the music, then at least the magnificent drinks and atmosphere at the Black Cow.

Starting tomorrow, my care-free summer schedule will be consumed like an unknowing rabbit is stalked by a starved Hungarian river fox (I enjoy giving my animals nationalities). I begin training for my employment at Bruster's tomorrow. I'll be getting paid for training, which is a tantalizing thought, but I have yet to fully memorize the numerous pages of information that they gave me several weeks ago. I hope that they decide to extend mercy to me.

jazz music relaxes me to the umpteenth degree.

my hair is growing slowly but surely.


[listening to: naima - john coltrane]
[mood: restless]