we all have our days.

when i say "those", i mean me.

[note: if you hate hearing people whine, don't continue. because, contrary to what i usually believe about feeling sorry for myself, this post is filled with self pity. forgive me. i'm feeling under the weather in more ways than two]

i feel lost. there are these endless possibilities, choices, problems, questions, and conflicts that i am faced with. i don't know how to deal with half of them. my moods have been fluctuating nearly as much as the weather has been lately. one day i feel top notch, completely encouraged and full of life. the next day, i'm just confused. not necessarily in a bad mood, or raging at people spontaneously. i just feel tired of life (not living...mind you). i'm sick of high-school conflict. i'm tired of social disorder. maybe i'm not really explaining how i feel very accurately. but i'm sort of beyond a point that i can tell.

i'm exhausted. everytime that i take a break from school, i am going on to partake in some other tiring event. i just need to slow down.

and i feel physically sick, but i am pretty confident that most of it has to do with my lack of sleep.

i'm getting a little bit tired of complaining, so i'll end this. i wouldn't be surprised if i erased this post soon. so anyways. have a good night.