more often than not

i'm confused. i'm not sure how to handle things right now. it seems like things would be simpler if i lived under my bed and didn't interact with other human beings. maybe i should try it, and after a year or so, my problems would be solved. unfortunately, living under my bed isn't an option.

i feel like i'm walking on broken glass. if i move too fast, or step in the wrong places, i'll get cut. except it's really not me... it's other people. they seem to have a problem with every little thing that i do, or that's how it seems to be. i might just be blowing things out of proportion, which i suppose i often tend to do. or maybe i really am messing things up, but i'm just not seeing it.

even though i'm not really being detailed about my situation, i'd appreciate any words of encouragement.

tonight i'm going to youth at the mccravy's. i've heard rumor of some sort of bonfire. i'd enjoy that... cold nights + bonfires = a happy steven. this evening may get better. we'll wait and see. oh and by the way, i just made 20+ notecards for biology, on cloning. my mind is absolutely numb.

adios.

[listening to: losing a whole year - third eye blind]
[mood: pleasantly devoid of understanding]